On the first of January I vowed to write a post a day-my personal goal to get back into my writing mind and launch my two one woman shows that have been dancing in the crevices of my think space for far too long. If you are keeping up- I am behind already. See?
This is what happens: There are things that have to get done -my have to’s( though as I have been told- a true artist does not fiddle in the world of have to’s unless it is the time and dedication it takes to focus on the artistic form of choice) The only artists I know who really stay true to that philosophy have either a trust fund-or neither a child or spouse-or if they do have the latter- the self obsession is pretty high- there is a certain sort of genuis that lurks in that kind of mind………….or maybe it is just really creative and really selfish in the same space.
I know if I had the time to do nothing but create and collaborate- and invite the genius sure to be lurking in my own mind-I doubt I would use it wisely. I would still, at this point, have other have to’s that needed to be done. BUT, I do know, when there is quiet in the day, and the phone is not ringing, the bills are paid, clothes are clean and the house is, well,sorta; I find great comfort in the hum of my mind when I can do nothing but write, or sing-or itch some creative scratch. There is nothing better than being in a rehearsal process where all that stuff is given permission to play. A lot.
This will be the year.